Rotten Seeds - Dysphoria

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k6EqDkk7X0Q

this skin makes me crawl

it makes me ache.

and I sink when I think of

what happened on the 8th

month of the year

6th day of the month

in 89 at 10:11 am.

or was it at conception?

that the deception took place

when they looked at me

and named me kate

my whole life

has been raped

and raked away

by a mind that sat at bay

with no reflection in the water

and with no reflection

came rejection

deviation

pushed out to sea with no flotation

my vice is.

life

misunderstood me

mistook me to be her

but all I could see was him

could never relate to that

but I could always relate to them

going through the motions of what I've spent many years learning

yearning yet not earning what I've lived for.

what I projected was not being recognized

instead I was taken to be confused.

and refused the chance to live

they figured they'd just give

me whatever seemed suitable

and I was to just take

but in a fit I denied

yet I was left with my feelings raped

and raked away

by a dress and make up that sat upon my frail body
and covered a face

that felt like nothing like mine

all because I was a boy

not in my body

but in my mind